Relativity by Cristin Bishara (Post 4)

A page here and a chapter there, staying up til the late hours crossing the words on the page with my eyes. This novel truly draws you in and locks you in place, its a novel that's so addicting and you can't stop reading it. Which for me is quite sad that I haven't finished it yet, though it on my priority list for the next couple weeks or so. In the middle of the book the conflict is starting to show through along with the underlying theme. "Yeah, I have abhor Mom's absence. I hate the emptiness. After being with her for a couple hours. I can see how vacant and silent my life has been for the past 11 years." (Bishara, 143) Throught the chapter Ruby keeps thinking and rethinking every move she makes. "I mean, I 'dbe anidiot to jump in and out of the tree until I reach Universe One, when my own personal utopia could be waiting for me." (Bishara, 144) Since she has found her mom she is unsure wether to continue in her goal to find her own home universe. "...until I get back home. Back to Willow and Kandy, and their decrepit house. Back no smelly Ennis High, Home of the Bear. Back to dad... On the other side: Take my time in each universe, looking for the ideal. Mom and dad could be in love in Universe Five or Seven or Ten. And it's not like I'm ditching dad. Not at all. Because dad will be there. He'll just be a better version of dad one who isn't glued to a computer screen 24/7. We'll do things together." (Bishara, 146) Ruby is trying to convince herself that it is ok if she never goes back to Universe One. If she finds the perfect place and stays there, were her mom is alive and with her dad, which her dad isn't working as much and spends time with his family. She is justifying maybe never going back. 

During this chapter Ruby experiences a person vs. self while she thinks about finding her perfect uptiopia she always dreamed of, yet could never had, and thanks to the tree is now is. I believe the theme of this part of text is that For when people realize their desires and can reach them, they will jump in without thinking it through and the mass affect it could cause. For Ruby she is thinking she won't actully be leaving her dad, she would just be with a better version of her dad, and with her mom which is now dead. When in truth it's not her place to be anyways, she belongs in the universe that her dad is a workaholic and her mom is dead. It's quite sad but that is just how it is, and she can't change that, and if she trys there is no telling what would happen.